The moment I
received my O level results, I broke down instantaneously. Feeling of sadness
ruptured my heart. I looked at my points and heaved a bad sigh. I couldn't
possibly make my way to the JC. As dreamt, I would want to continue my studies
there as simply it will be an easier way for admission to go to the university.
I broke to tears when I informed my parents that I could not possibly head to a JC path. Deep down, I've been wanting to go Millenia Institute but my points failed me. As usual, my parents were calming and reassuring me down.
I was in a total state of shock and not knowing what course to choose. I was torn between Science and Business. Day and night had I been researching intently on which course suited me. I've an eye for business as I took POA and business is just my thing. My parents cut the conversation and wanted me to take Nursing course. They thought that I will get a stable job as there's been a high demand of job in the nursing field.
Without objecting and fighting my parent's decisions, I put “Nursing” as my top choices. My sister even let me talked with one of her graduated Nursing friend in asking how Nursing life is.
As I've already submitted my choices, I pray to Allah that hopefully I've made the right choice. Unease and doleful lingered through my mind. I really have no interest in Science even though I emerged the top student for N level. Studying in lab, using microscope and wearing coat labs aren’t my thing. Yes, I did score well for my science paper, but that doesn't mean I would like to further my studies on that particular field.
I made the decision to change. A strong energetic force wanted me to edit my choices. Receiving the school message that I've been accepted from the school, I quickly browsed again the polytechnic course books. I knew that I'm doing the right thing. I'm sorry that I went against my parents’ decision to call Nursing choice an off. The simple fact that I do not want to learn to be a Nurse; I just don't have any interest in that.
I believe, I could not succeed or focus well if that choice/course is not my cup of tea. I won't obtain good grades if my heart and soul isn't 100% putting in effort to study.
My parents felt dismayed as they couldn't see their daughter in becoming a Nurse. I'm sorry again Pa, Ma. You guys like that Nursing field. But I simply don't. What for pursuing something I don't like and in the end I don't get what I want?
And there's wisdom hikmah in me not choosing Nursing as my choice/course. Being a Nurse, I couldn't possibly don on my hijab permanently. Yes, maybe a while. Before going to work, I will don on it. On the verge of doing work, I have to remove it. After work, I have to don it back.
Dons and Remove Dons and Remove. I simply don't like that action. It's precisely not sincere. Why not choose something that allows me to don on it permanently or without having to remove it? I will be saved from the torment of hellfire, Insha’Allah.
I broke to tears when I informed my parents that I could not possibly head to a JC path. Deep down, I've been wanting to go Millenia Institute but my points failed me. As usual, my parents were calming and reassuring me down.
I was in a total state of shock and not knowing what course to choose. I was torn between Science and Business. Day and night had I been researching intently on which course suited me. I've an eye for business as I took POA and business is just my thing. My parents cut the conversation and wanted me to take Nursing course. They thought that I will get a stable job as there's been a high demand of job in the nursing field.
Without objecting and fighting my parent's decisions, I put “Nursing” as my top choices. My sister even let me talked with one of her graduated Nursing friend in asking how Nursing life is.
As I've already submitted my choices, I pray to Allah that hopefully I've made the right choice. Unease and doleful lingered through my mind. I really have no interest in Science even though I emerged the top student for N level. Studying in lab, using microscope and wearing coat labs aren’t my thing. Yes, I did score well for my science paper, but that doesn't mean I would like to further my studies on that particular field.
I made the decision to change. A strong energetic force wanted me to edit my choices. Receiving the school message that I've been accepted from the school, I quickly browsed again the polytechnic course books. I knew that I'm doing the right thing. I'm sorry that I went against my parents’ decision to call Nursing choice an off. The simple fact that I do not want to learn to be a Nurse; I just don't have any interest in that.
I believe, I could not succeed or focus well if that choice/course is not my cup of tea. I won't obtain good grades if my heart and soul isn't 100% putting in effort to study.
My parents felt dismayed as they couldn't see their daughter in becoming a Nurse. I'm sorry again Pa, Ma. You guys like that Nursing field. But I simply don't. What for pursuing something I don't like and in the end I don't get what I want?
And there's wisdom hikmah in me not choosing Nursing as my choice/course. Being a Nurse, I couldn't possibly don on my hijab permanently. Yes, maybe a while. Before going to work, I will don on it. On the verge of doing work, I have to remove it. After work, I have to don it back.
Dons and Remove Dons and Remove. I simply don't like that action. It's precisely not sincere. Why not choose something that allows me to don on it permanently or without having to remove it? I will be saved from the torment of hellfire, Insha’Allah.
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